My Birthday List

Do you still get gifts at 21?
I’m not sure what to ask for this year for my Birthday.
For some reason, there is nothing I can think of that I really want.

-Box Sets-I suppose. The Hills, Desperate Housewives, 90210 Season 1.
That would be fun.
-Gift Certificates are always good too. Cards to the mall would be nice considering I need infinite work clothes. For some reason I have a feeling that “want” won’t ever change. Restaurants and Chapters would also be much appreciated. I love going out for dinner and I also enjoy reading.
-A new bed set for my bed at my Mom’s. Including new pillows. I don’t like the pillows there, they hurt my neck.
-Maybe the new Sims Expansion Packs and Stuff packs. But I probably won’t play with them often as I don’t often play video games anymore. **Note my Kingdom Hearts obsession from earlier on this month (I got stuck and now I’ve completely disowned it). I think I’d be very sad if I knew that I grew out of video games because I do honestly love them.
-A certain DVD edited together from my LAST birthday. :(
-Jewelry: Like a simple necklace or nice studs to wear to work.
-Get Him to the Greek.
-An XBOX 360. :)
-A Gift Card for a Massage or a Mani/Pedi. That would be nice.
-But all I really want is for my friends to come to my birthday party and to have a nice dinner with my family on both sides. I know that’s kinda cheesy but that’s what I want, that’s what would make me happy.


…Gifts would still be nice though. So much for not knowing what I want.

Lake

You know that certain time of day where the sun hits the water and creates this sort of...glow?

I love that time of day. There is something so beautiful about it. I think I'd really like to live on a lake one day so I could wake up every morning and see this.

It's calming, it really is.

New York City, For Example.

I'm going to compare myself to my own obsessions.

We'll use New York City as an example.

My biggest dream (and goal, essentially) is to head off to New York City. Vacation first, and then hopefully to live.

Unfortunately, that probably won't happen for a while. But for some reason, it's like I need to go there now. I always want everything right now.

Like most things in my life...

Something I need to learn to do is to appreciate what I have going for me right now. Right here.
Why is that so hard for me? I always have to focus on everything that is so far away. Long gone.

I know what is going to make me happy. I know that New York City would make me happy, among other things.

But that's not going to happen right now. I need to accept that.

Any tips for moving on with your life after you've hit rock bottom?

Child and Youth

I sometimes consider changing my career choice but how do I go to school for 3 more years with no money?

Looking forward to..

I don't have much to post.

I have a few new things to look forward to consisting of:

Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep.
Glee on Box Set DVD.
Lord of the Rings: The fellowship of the Ring (the book).
Halloween.
Christmas.
Not eating ever again.
Exercising (Let's get serious.)

I'm thinking I need to work out.

I don't enjoy the feeling of carrying a small baby in my stomach.

Relax. I'm not pregnant. But it sure feels like it the past couple of days.

Stomach Bloat...go away-I beg of you.

My sad, sad life.

My life-this is what we're lookin' at:

Vampire Diaries
Gossip Girl
working.
Hellcats
Glee
spending time with friends.
How I Met Your Mother
The Office
eating like it's my job.
Grey's Anatomy
Desperate Housewives
Modern Family
my own family.
One Tree Hill.
Jersey Shore.
sleeping.

How sad.

Thank you

...for giving me a chance at a job.
...for allowing my friends to give me a second chance.
...for music.
...for mindless entertainment.
...for my amazing and supportive family.
...for my dogs (all four of them).
...for my emotions (good or bad-it's me).
...for the positive direction in my life.

I'll thank myself for finally becoming grateful for these things. I'll thank myself for knowing that there is more to be thankful for-there's much too much to name.

Oh-I'm also thankful for this blog.

Thanks to those who keep reading it, as I seem to be posting more than once a day.
I hope I'm not annoying you?

My Day Has Been Made-And Apparently So Has His.

Everyday you learn something new. Everyday you experience something new.

Today was definitely one of those days.

After all-It's not everyday that you go to Hillcrest Park to shoot a commercial at two in the afternoon and witness a guy being... um... pleasured in his car.

Since when is it okay to sit in your car midday surrounded by a dozen other cars and fool around?

Isn't that what the "Bluffs" are for... At midnight?

Fabulous.

Did the most amazing thing today.
I can't tell you what that is, though.
It's something that I hope can get passed on and spoken about. I hope your day is made.

It's a pleasure to meet you.

Dear New York City,
When will I get to meet you?
When will I get to experience your bright lights and crowded streets and taxi cabs?
Your plasma screens in Times Square?
Your high fashion?
Your broadway shows?
Your fantastic penthouses and architecture?
Your art history and informative museums?
New York, New York-I look forward to finally meeting you. One day.

Future Pondering

I sometimes wonder what is going to happen after my temporary job (insert sad face) is completed.
Of course-I wish it was permanent. I love what I'm doing. For the first time ever, I look forward to going to work. But, alas, it's not. Although, you never know what could change in the meantime...7 months is a long time.

But-what comes after? If there are no job openings in the station, I'm back to square one. But with no job. Do I pick up my stuff and move to another city? I think my experience working with clients, professional writing, etc. might boost my chances of getting hired in a larger market. So, is that what I do? Just pick up and go? Serve tables until the media decides to hire me? Live in a bachelor sized apartment in a grungy Toronto area? Do I live in a small town with the high hopes of getting hired by them? And what happens if no one hires me?

These are all questions that I will sit here and ponder until March.

I consider myself extremely lucky that I have this Creative Writer job. So lucky.

I'll take all the experience I can get.

4 Things I'm not Grateful for-It's only 10am.

1. Calling Dr. Turner's office to confirm 2 days before my appointment. They told me this about 6 months ago. The receptionist was extremely unpleasant. I won't get into it because it will aggravate me all over again.

2. My favorite blogger deleted me off of her stalked list. What reason is there to blog anymore?! I know I'm just being over dramatic but I was so excited about a week ago seeing that I was on that list in the first place! Perhaps I need to blog more? I contradict myself.

3. It's POURING rain outside. The leaves are changing. Summer is ending.

4. I had to cancel my first shoot-again!-because of the rain.

My step-mom was laughing because it was 7:45 in the morning and I was in a fantastic mood. It is now 9:44am and already I can name 4 things that have gone wrong.
I blame the rain.