Halloween Shenanagins.

Hey everyone!
I know not long ago I was getting into the habit of posting everyday-but I've been so busy lately I haven't really had the time! :)

Work is going great. I've been so busy lately and taking on extra work to help my boss out.

So this weekend is Halloween weekend and it is going to be an absolute blast!!

I have a packed agenda as follows:

Friday: The Haunted Cornfield followed by the Rocky Horror Picture Show. I'm supposed to dress up...anyone know where to find a maid costume to represent the spooky "Magenta"? All I need to do is shower quickly after the cornfield blowdry my hair and then brush it to maintain ULTRA frizz (fro? Whatever. My hair is pretty wild.)

Saturday: Baking all day with the ladies and decorating fun followed by drinks/Shag. :) VERY exciting!

Sunday: Halloween Day! Handing out candy followed by Haunted Fort Night! SO exciting!!

For all of you who don't know I am dressing up as an Avatar on Saturday. Anyone know where I can find cheap yellow contacts?! It would make my costume so much better. But I'm already going to be blue and that's pretty legit.

On another note, I should start taking/posting pictures on this blog of myself and the shenans I get up to... It might make my blog a bit more easy on the eyes rather than just straight text.

What do you think? Maybe I'll post pictures of me in my super awesome costume.


Yay for Halloween!!!

Oh and great movies to watch this Halloween:

1. Hocus Pocus (obviously)
2. Casper
3. My Mom Has a Date With A Vampire
4. Rocky Horror Picture Show
5. The Nightmare Before Christmas

There's so much more that I can't even think of right now!

Happy Halloween Weekend, err'one!

This Song Speaks To Me

Taylor Swift-You just know me so well don't you?


"The way you move is like a full on rainstorm
And I'm a house of cards
You’re the kind of reckless that should send me running
But I kinda know that I won’t get far

And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't see
What I was thinking of

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
Cause' I see sparks fly whenever you smile

Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile

My mind forgets to remind me you’re a bad idea
You touch me once and it’s really something
You find I’m even better than you imagined I would be
I’m on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you I know it’s no good
And I could wait patiently but I really wish you would

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile

Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile

I run my fingers through your hair
And watch the lights go wild
Just keep on keeping your eyes on me
It’s just strong enough to make it feel right
And lead me up the staircase
Won't you whisper soft and slow
I’m captivated by you baby
Like a fireworks show

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile

Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile"

Another Happy Post-Sick of them yet?

It's really nice to feel honest happiness.

Just sayin'.

:)

Note To Self

Reminder to myself: accept, allow and love.

Have a great day!

Thinking Of You

Dear Amy,

I know we haven't spoken often but I just want you to know I'm thinking about you.
I am thinking about you and wishing you a well recovery.

I think this teaches me that I need to keep more in contact with our little Drama class from highschool. All you kids meant the world to me, you should probably know that.

I really didn't like highschool and that semester kept me sane because I had you guys to look forward to at the end of the day. You were always keeping me laughing and I love you all so much. Our drama class was by far the best part of MY highschool experience, even though it probably wasn't as significant to you guys.

So Amy, please be okay. I'm worried and don't want anything to happen to you. <3 You're in my thoughts.

Please Excuse My Excessive Posting

Sometimes things happen that are completely unexpected, let me tell you.

But isn't that what makes it great? Isn't that what makes it worth it?

I know that some things in life aren't planned-but maybe it's true what they say: Good things happen to those who wait.

It's just unfortunate when you don't want to.

It's nice to know that you might have actually found something worth trying for and of course there has to be strings attached. Of course there has to be complications.

I don't want to do this alone, would you please join me for the ride? I feel so happy and I'm afraid of what comes next.

A Blog About Blogging

I just realized something that made me smile to myself.

I've had this blog since April. That's the longest I've ever kept something like this.

Usually, I'll start something similar and I get bored.

I get bored of things easily. Don't confused that for people.

I get bored of entertainment quickly. And I'm pleasantly surprised as to how long I have kept this blog going for.

It seems that I will get these thoughts in my head and it's always a nice relief to be able to let them out on here, whether people read it or not.

I don't quite do it for you, I do it for myself. It just feels good to be able to let my thoughts out, what I'm thinking that day...my feelings.

It feels good. I recommend blogging as a mood booster, that's for sure!

Feel Good Things Of The Day So Far

1. How the mornings appear darker and darker.
2. Avatar Costumes and Halloween Shags in the near future.
3. When waking up, your hair goes exactly the way you want it too and you don't need to do a single thing to it.
4. Liquid Eyeliner.
5. Smiling to yourself because of new feelings and experiences.
6. Meeting a new puppy! :)
7. French Vanilla in the AM.
8. Writing Christmas Scripts.
9. The unexpected.
10. Feeling Genuinly Happy For Yourself and Other People.

Have a great day!

I'm Trying To Handle All This Un-Predictability.

I've kind of been thinking lately.
Just thinking and looking at how my life has panned out over the past year.
I've definitely had hard, emotional times. There have been times where I have a had a lot of fun and felt content. I feel like it's kind of a rollercoaster of emotion.

I am happy to say that for the first time in a long time I feel truly and honestly happy. I feel hopeful.

For the first time, I don't care.

I am looking forward to what my future brings and I'm not dwelling in my past.

It's such a good feeling.

But of course, sometimes with happiness comes obstacles and difficulties to get what you want and where you want to go.

I can only hope that somehow I'm able to sort out these problems so nothing can stand in my way.

I know what I want even though I don't know how I got to this point. Sometimes things just happen. Life, essentially, just happens and there's nothing you can do about it.

I guess lust, love, relationships (or whatever) wouldn't really mean the same thing if it wasn't hard. I don't really think it's ever easy.

But I think every step of the way is worth it.

Bad Situation.

For the record, this isn't a sad post.

But how the hell do I get myself into these kinds of situations?

I swear-trouble follows me. I'd like emotion to come easy to me for once instead of constantly arriving with plenty of ties.

FML.

Black and White Blowout-Birthday Shenanagins!

I would be lying if I said I wasn't slightly nervous for the events of Saturday night aka my Birthday event.

It started off a little rocky--I felt like I was getting the flu earlier that morning and people were bailing on dinner and said they would just come to my house after. Although-I was pleased when dinner went very well and drinks and good food were shared among friends.

We finished up and made my way over to my house which quickly filled up with fun loving girls with drinks and gifts galore! I wasn't expecting people to give me gifts but they did which made me smile-I really was just happy to have all my girlfriends together under one roof. One present was a little bittersweet-but we don't speak of that here.

What got me a little emotional is when I was told to sit down at my dining room table and noticed a small truck outside that I didn't recognize. I continuously asked who that person was and no one would answer me. Tamara, Paula and Vanessa told to stay seated and gathered everyone together and then brought me something I didn't expect. A "Breakfast at Tiffany's" decorated cake! It was absolutely gorgeous. Aqua blue frosting with a chocolate film reel with pictures of Audrey Hepburn's Holly Golightly decorated subtly with sugared pearls. Oh it was beautiful, absolutely beautiful.

We proceeded to celebrate before the event and lots of laughs were had-it was fun.

On we went to the Black and White blow-out... a little nervous on what the evening would bring. As we got there the venue was filling up and more and more my friends arrived and more and more drinks were consumed (hey-sometimes this has to happen!) and my nerves quickly went away.

There was no drama whatsoever. I was so happy. I was so surprised--I didn't even care about the thing I was most nervous about. I was shocked to realize-nothing phased me. (I probably don't have to mention what this paragraph is about-so for the sake of happy posts, I'll leave it at that.)

The place started to die down and we decided to "hail down a taxi" and go to a small house party afterwards. I held a snake. That is all. :)

Then we went home and went to bed and it was a perfect birthday party. Perfect! 100%.

You're My Kind of Perfect.

It's nice to find sweet connections.
A person that makes you smile, a person that remembers.

It's nice to feel hopeful and be able to forget because of a new kind of fluttery feeling.

So-thanks, I thoroughly enjoy you. :)

Legal!

Today I am 21! I'm legal everywhere.

Vegas anyone?! :)

I'm on a Health High! For real!

What a difference between wanting to exercise and forcing exercise.

The past week and a bit I have exercised everyday and without force. I have actually (for the first time ever) craved the treadmill. And what a change!

I feel so much better about myself-about my body and about my life.

I hope to continue releasing these very powerful endorphins that make me feel so good!

I'm on an health kick-a feel good high!

Let's hope that motivation keeps up while the high lasts so I don't get bored and quit.

Happy Thanksgiving

Soul cleansing, clean slate, lose weight.

Birthdays, coloured leaves.

New movies, great shows, video games and fantasy books.

Business clothes, hair straighteners, mousse, awesome Halloween Costumes and cell phones.

Family, friends, my dogs and Love.

**Happy Thanksgiving**

My Unreal Halloween Costume

My costume is the best this year!

I'm going as an *drumroll please....*





AN AVATAR!!!!!!!!!


I got the best body suit and all I have to do is paint my face and braid my hair!

Exciting right?

Should I splurge and buy yellow contacts?
Hm..maybe.

Dear Friends and Future Love

Dear friendships,
I just want to thank you all for being there for me.
I just want you to know how much I appreciate your kindness, ability to make me laugh, and overall will to spend time with me.
These are all to all of my true friends.

Dear future love,
I'm excited to meet you as it's always exciting to meet new BFF's.
I'm excited to feel emotions stronger than I've ever felt before.
I'm excited for you to care as much about me as I do about you.
I'm excited to meet you.


Fake imitators: please disregard this message.

Beliefs and such. Just pondering.

I'm not too sure what I believe in regarding religion.
I mean-I believe in God...or a how you say, "Higher Power".
I don't believe in Hell. Perhaps Earth is Hell? It would make sense, wouldn't it?
The Earth is such a scary place...
Maybe if you aren't ready to go to "Heaven" or some beautiful place, you must come back to Earth?
And maybe you have a choice. Maybe once you're gone, you don't want to move on yet. You don't want to go to Heaven. So instead you choose reincarnation?
Yes. I think that is what I will go with. I think that's what I choose to believe.

The topic of "what comes next" is a terrifying one for me. I get really panicky when I think of death in general and what is next for me. I hope I have a long ways to go before I need to start even thinking about it, but it's definitely an active thought in my brain.
I mean, there can't just be blackness, can there? Just darkness...nothing? That seems impossible. The very thought of human existance seems impossible, though. So who knows?
Terrifying thought.

For now, I just choose to believe in myself, I guess. :)

Traveling Abroad.

Have you ever made a decision in your life and felt like you needed it at that very second?
Well, I just made a very exciting decision for myself... I am going to enroll in an exchange program once my temporary position is up!
Although-I can't decide where I want to go.

Should I volunteer in New Zealand or Costa Rica helping out either animals, children or the environment? (Price approx. $1,500)*
...or should I learn a language in Paris or Italy (price almost $3000...ouch.)*
OR should I independently live with a wealthy British family in the United Kingdom learning about culture and castles? (Price just a little over $1000)*

This is definitely something that I want to do, I feel like it could be an amazing experience for an affordable price.
*Each price doesn't include tourism activities and airfare.

This is an opportunity that I am really excited about but I just need to learn to handle my money better so I can save and actually do this.
So if you know that I'm about to spend my money on something silly, please advise me against it and remind me of my potential travels in the New Year.

KThx.

October and Nice Accompaniements

This month is going to bring extraordinary things.

I can just feel it.

First of all, there are 3 big things that happen this month. First is Thanksgiving. Second is my 21st birthday. And third is Halloween.

I really like Halloween. I love dressing up in a neat costume every year, even though I don't usually go out. I love to do make-up so it's fun to go all out.

I'm not sure if my friends and I are going as something that all ties in together or doing our own individual costumes. I have an idea for what I'd like to go as if I were doing my own solo costume.

Holly Golightly.

I just need to find a little black dress for a decent price. And a cigarette stick.
I'm also thinking about getting the large hat but that might get annoying at whatever shag we end up at. So I might just back comb my hair like crazy.

We'll have to see what I decide later. It could be a nice costume though.

I'm really excited to see all of your costumes as well.

There are also some small things that are nice about October as well such as the colourful and falling leaves from the trees. It's especially pretty to look at when you are driving down a dirt road. Try driving up to the mountain and you'll see what I'm talking about. It's beautiful.

Halloween decorations and lights on the houses. And then not long after, Christmas decorations and lights.

How it begins to get darker and before you know it, you can already see the moon at 6PM.

Fall clothing (boots, sweaters, pretty jackets and scarves)

How the coffee menu at Starbucks changes to festive flavours.

I didn't think I liked when the season would change to anything but Summer, but I think I'm beginning to appreciate it more.

An Announcement.

Something else that makes me very happy is when people tell me that I shouldn't be sad. That it's a waste of time. That I have no reason to be.

Obviously everyone has reasons to be sad, but that's a big waste of life, now isn't it?
Being so sad all the time, I'm missing out on all of the great things life has to offer.

I think I'm a nice girl with a lot of potential for contentment so why am I wasting it on being upset over things that clearly don't matter?

I've decided to delete all of my unhappy posts.

Those were all just moments of ranting to get my feelings out.

My blog will be purely for the good things I see in life from now on.

So if you're looking for me to complain--this girl has taken over a new leaf! No more will I be living with a glass half empty--I'm always going to be living with my glass half full!

And I'll be doing it for me.

And that's that!

New Friends

You know what I love?
I love making new friends.
I know that is cheesy, but I do.
I love that feeling of acceptance and when someone you just met thinks you are entertaining.
Pretty soon you are hanging out with their friends and a brand new group of people and then you have new acquaintances that eventually turn into Facebook friend requests and before you know it, new friendships are formed.
It's just a nice feeling, to make new friends.