April 30, 2010

And she was done.

I am finished school forever.
It is now time to become an adult and stop being so whiny.
It was rather sweet when I came back to my desk today to find a card addressed to me. I opened it and many people of Dougall Media signed it wishing me luck in the future etc. It was very nice and unexpected. Surprisingly, I'll miss the 8 hour days.

...I don't want to grow up.

April 29, 2010

Obsessions and Other Fun Things.

I'm aware this is my 3rd post of the day, my life in this chair is not so exciting at times.

I just read a random blog post about a theme park scheduled to open up in Orlando this summer. What is the theme you ask? Harry Potter!!
I'm thinking that my trip to Florida cannot come soon enough.
Don't judge, but all of my life I've wanted to be a witch, to experience the excitement of spells and mystical creatures. But those fantasies grow larger when I read Harry Potter (or watch the movies) and I realize there is an entire fictitious world out there waiting for me consisting of Dementors, shapeshifters, a wizard and witchcraft school, crying ghosts, and customizable wands.
Nerdy? Yes. Definitely.
So you can imagine that when I hear of an entire theme park dedicated to wizards and butterbeer, I tend to get more than a little excited.
New life goal: Go to the Harry Potter Theme Park. Possibly even live there so I can fufill my wierd fantasy of being a witch.

Of course, I love other fantasy as well. I loved the book "The Hobbit" for example. I loved all of the different kinds of characters that came along with that book such as Elves and Ogres.
...It's too bad that Earth doesn't have such mystical creatures.

But that is what RPG games are for...which is definitely another obsession saved for a future blog post.

I think that is all for today, considering I get to go home and take a nap in about 12 minutes.


I'm not all that religious (although I do believe in God)-- but this struck me as surprisingly comforting.

One night i dreamed a dream.

I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me, and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me i looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life.

This always bothered me and i questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, you told me when i decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But i'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when i needed You most, You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, i love you and will never leave you never, ever, during your trials and testings.

When you saw only one set of footprints it was then that i carried you."

Wasting 7 Minutes of Time.

In one more day, I will no longer be working 8:30-5:00 pm. Although, I will be working two part time jobs: One at the legendary Shoppers Drug Mart and second at DOUGALL MEDIA in TV Production!! I'm extremely excited because a) I have a job in the industry b) I'll get to learn more about what it takes to be behind the scenes.

On another note, last night I was finally able to see the group of friends I have been neglecting. I told myself I would leave the house party at 11 pm but I ended up staying until about 12. It was fun. I missed all of their smiling faces... I also promised them that when my placement is done, I will definitely be redeeming myself with Mojito's (something that tastes surprisingly like Lebanese salad), laughs and absolutely NO yawns :).

Thirdly, this weekend is going to be eventful yet again. Friday (if the plan follows through) I think me and some of the girls are going to be having an old-fashioned sleepover with NO alcohol permitted. And then Saturday I work until ten but then after a friend is coming into town, so I believe we're going to the bar (which I have decided I will not be drinking...unless of course my mind changes, but who knows?), and then Sunday is the Kids Help Phone walk with my family. But, on the bright side, I will not be waking up at 7:30 any of these days. So that is a definite plus.

And now for the most exciting news of all, Vampire Diaries. Tonight. 8pm. Be there.

April 27, 2010


I'm excited because...
I will be auditioning for RENT!
I've been away from the performing arts for quite sometime... So hopefully my audition is a success. Even if i'm backup, I'll be happy.
We'll see!
I hope to get the part of Joanne.. that would definitely be my first choice. I feel like I could sing her songs well (minus the high note in Seasons of Love...any RENT fan will know what I'm talking about)

April 25, 2010

If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

April 23, 2010

You make me smile. :)

When I had a boyfriend, I saw my boyfriend. I rarely was in sight of friends.
Now that I'm by myself, the loneliness gets to me, and I strive on my friendships.
So I'm saying thanks to all my friends who put up with my crazy self.

Excuse My Numerous Posts... I'm passing the time.

**I remember the first time I tasted Lipton Green Tea (and we’re talking the cold beverage here). It was when I was probably about 16 years old… I was never a citrus fan but for some reason the taste of this beverage was heaven on my tongue. Now, I discovered the little fridge in some guy’s office where we can freely take whatever we want, and behold! Lipton Green Tea! Deeeelish! Lipton Green Tea, we meet again!

**Vampire Diaries! When the summer begins, I might go through a “seasonal depression” until the Fall when VD makes its way back into my life. Never before has a show captivated my interest as much as this one. Never before has a show made me feel excited, nervous, happy, sad and warm all at the same time! Never before have I seen a show so intense! AND never before have I seen the most beautiful people all on one show…It’s…intimidating. I LOVE it!!!!!

**Oh, Iphone, how I love you. I never used to like cell phones. I used to have an old Sony Ericsson and I hated it. Whenever someone would text me, I’d rarely text them back. I would never have my phone with me so I would always miss my calls. Now I bring my Iphone everywhere. I can’t get enough of it!

**Go green! Buy an aluminum water bottle! Even though the water does tend to taste like…well…aluminum, you are saving the EARTH! And, you can get them in pretty colours and designs. ***My placement doesn’t recycle and you wouldn’t believe how much bottles and paper this company goes through! It’s crazy!!!! Buy an aluminum water bottle and e-mail—don’t print!!!

April 22, 2010


Lyrics that aren't just words:

"There's somethin' bout the way, the street looks when its just rained. There's a glow on the pavement"

"Believe in me, help me believe in anything"

"Nothin' makes sense. Nothin' makes sense anymore"

"Stupid girl-I should've known, I should've known."

"Now I don't know what to be without you around/Nothin' you say is gonna save us from the fallout"


Little Things That Make Me Happy

*Pita's. It's like heaven in my mouth without the excess fat and calories!!
*When I walk into my room and I can smell the comfyness of my bed. Sounds wierd I know...but I just can.
*Endless television watching. I just can't seem to have enough TV shows!
*When something I say makes my parents laugh or smile.
*Sour Dinosours.
*Skyscrapers (From the inside looking out or from the outside looking AT)
*Makeup and it's endless possibilities.
*Turkey Dinners
*The rain.
*Summer: Shorts, tanks, sunglasses, fishing and camping!

There's so much more but this is what I could think of at the time. :)

April 21, 2010

Tupperware and Mops

I happen to be hair illiterate. I don’t know how to curl or braid nor do anything fun to my hair whatsoever. I have this friend who will always do my styling for me so when we go out, my hair looks half decent and not just a mop sitting on the top of my head. She’ll pull and yank and I find myself yelping at the tugs. She responds with “Beauty is Pain”.
If beauty is pain, and I can’t even handle the pulling of hair strands, how do people like Heidi Montag, Meg Ryan and numerous other celebrities receive loads of painful plastic surgeries in order to look, well, worse?
As most people know, but for those who don’t, Heidi Montag (The Hills) recently had TEN surgeries in order to look her best. Excuse me?! Ten surgeries? Oh. And that was at the same time! How do you smile? How do you sit? How do you even move?! That must have been one painful day…and she doesn’t even look good. She was such a pretty, down to earth girl when she was first introduced on The Hills. Now she looks like “Triple E Barbie”.
I can understand wanting to change a certain aspect of your appearance if your entire life you were insecure about your large nose that always stuck out of your face…your A-Cup when all of your friends had C’s or D’s…or get liposuction because every time your girlfriends were exchanging clothes you couldn’t because you didn’t fit into their Small’s or Medium’s. I get why if you had the chance to change something… you would; because if you hated something so much about yourself, you would finally be able to sigh in relief at your new confidence.
But why ten different surgeries? Why announce it to the world that you hate yourself that much that you go and change ten different things about your body? I’m curious if Heidi realizes that everyone thinks that she looked better before her very first surgery. But I guess if it makes her feel more confident and better about herself, then what are we all gossiping for…right?
Regardless…If beauty really is pain and the end result has you looking like you are a piece of Tupperware...I’ll take my mop hair any day of the week!

Metal Skin.

No matter where you live, there is a large variety of places to go for a meal. Let’s face it. A good chunk of our time is spent eating-whether that is in our own homes, out in a restaurant, or in a fast-food joint. It seems that every time we eat breakfast, lunch, or dinner-in or out-we critique it. With so many different genres of food (Chinese, Japanese, Italian, Canadian etc.) there are endless options. For most people, going out for dinner is a social affair-to experience a meal that you don’t cook for yourself (unless of course you are at a trendy “grill it yourself” restaurant) and in general, have an enjoyable experience. In the restaurant industry, customers arrive expecting the best possible experience from their servers and their food. Obviously, this can sometimes be an impossible task. Servers are not robots. They are human. So why are there certain customers that just don’t seem to understand this? Customers come in a restaurant demanding outstanding service from their servers and if they don’t get 100% perfection, they show signs of disappointment-or worse-anger. And, alas, who gets the final blow? The servers. Half the time, it isn’t even the server’s fault that, say, there was bacon put on the plate instead of ham, or there was a hair in the chicken. Sometimes, it’s the cook that makes the mistake, but they get to hide out in the back. Or a good quarter of the time, it’s the customer’s fault-that they accidentally ordered the wrong thing. Servers know this, but there they are-smiling and offering free dessert. The whole point of going to a restaurant is to enjoy your experience, to have a good time…not make a College Student cry over bacon. I give props to all of those who are servers-they are the toughest kinds of people I know. They answer to orders like they are servants, smile and nod when a customer is unhappy, and are understanding and sympathetic. So be kind to your servers-remember that they are trying to make their way through school or just life in general. Remember that servers are not robots-they are people…people with metal skin.

Adventures with Jessica not in me :P.

So I've decided to start a blog. Not because I'm bored or because I want to keep up with today's "social networking status", but because I've recently taken an interest in writing. I mean, I don't think I'd ever be able to write a song or a decent poem, but I think I could do well in article writing...

Basically, I'll explain what is going on in my life right now to give anyone (who's not reading this) an idea of who I am and who my main goals are.

I'm on the verge of graduating Television Broadcasting which has given me skills in Camera work, editing, live studio work, on air work, writing and so much more!

I am in my third week of placement where I am a creative writer for commercials. I don't actually have clients, but basically I take clients from the actual creative writers who are getting paid and write scripts for them. They will then choose to replace my name with their own, change the entire script completely, or keep the script the same, change up bits and parts, and keep my name on the script. I prefer the last option, but really I am just happy to be doing this.

To be honest, before being in Creative, I never thought of myself as a writer. I would see writers on television and movies such as Sex and the City or How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days and think "I want to write for Magazines" but never actually thought seriously about it. After being a commercial writer, (and not always having a lot to do because I don't have any clients) I tend to research the Media industry more often than I want to. After doing this, I realized, I wouldn't mind actually, seriously, writing for a magazine! I've always loved reading about pop-culture, fashion and beauty, life tips, health tips, etc. so why not write about it? Sometimes my thoughts are all over the place, but I would love to further myself in order to be able to get a clear focused thought on paper. How fascinating would it be to be able to research and write it to make an interesting article.

It's the strangest thing for me because for so long I thought the only thing I wanted to do and was good at doing was acting (not even sure I'm that great). So there I was, sitting around, waiting to graduate in order to make this happen. But, finally, I've found something for myself to do and actually be happy participating in-writing!

I'll still try and making it in the acting biz (that is where my heart lies) but for now I know that there is always writing!

Now I just have to shorten up my thoughts and maybe I'll get somewhere....