May 11, 2012
Quiet & Still
This morning I woke up in the most peaceful state I've been in in a long time.
It was around 6:30 in the morning and I hadn't woken up once throughout the night. Not once, which is a rarity for me.
The sun was shining through the window and everything was quiet and still.
I was lying on my back and so was John, his arm wrapped underneath my neck and me sort of huddled into his "nook". It was just really peaceful.
I then remembered, I really needed to go to the bathroom but I didn't want to ruin this precious moment. A moment that has been replaced most nights with the feeling of just trying to get comfy and getting away from the snoring. It was a moment of pure love and beauty.
Why am I telling you this?
I have a lot of issues I need to work through.
Insecurities, jealousy, and sometimes a good case of the grumpies.
But I'm working on it. Really hard.
Right now, I know me and John have so much love in our relationship but that doesn't mean we don't need to work on certain aspects of it either.
It's too easy to get caught up in the little loving moments of relaxation and peace and then forget those moments when something the other one does pisses us off.
Keep working and keep loving. Never stop forgetting those moments, even in the hard times. And stop to appreciate those times even when you do have to pee.